January 2009
106 posts
weekend coming
im postponing the inevitable here by continuing on. new opportunities arent gonna knock, i have to bowl those doors over with this award winning personality and charm. now if i could only find a rabbits foot.
but this weekend. sports i dont neccessarily care about. saturday night… UFC. should be a good one, but i bet theres not going to be enough blood. i wish the octagon was more like a...
things ive come to realize
a. love goes as far as your thoughts and prayers can go. forgiveness comes from deep within yourself, not from those youve wronged. they might not even know, youve trespassed. forgive yourself… move on.
b. a solid family unit is the basis for all success. variations of that will have varying degrees of success.
c. adoration is a motherfucker. always sounds like a good idea. yet, always lets...
neo-simian
top o the mArnin to yea
its motherfuckin friday. can i gets a hell yeah?
im so ready for this week to end. to be erased from my life, blended in with all the other meaningless weeks of an existence less ordinary. flush it all away. yeah, the tool lyric.
the brainless acts of a brainless manchild.
wake, drive, work, eat, work, eat, drive, porn, gym, shower, eat, movie, book, bed, sleep and...
“scream loud, scream sayonara!! oh oh oh
sweet josephine, will you follow me...”
– coheed with cambria. devil in jersey city. second stage turbine blade.
is this thing on?
testing. TESTING. helllll o. hell o.
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ahhhh. the gravitational pull of a million things with their own orbit putting knots in my shoulders and ropes in my stomach. today is the same day like that bill mur-RAY movie. the same breaths in. the same annoying side characters… side plots. spillled milk. shit storm… its all become very whatevs by nw, has it not? hasnt...
“dear dustin,
yeah. i feel like that often”
– god
dear whomever
do you ever feel like the world is just AGAINST you?
dear duder
dont get fired.
were coming to phoenix in march-a.
you will need to show us around. blondes included.
sincerely,
dustin-tacious
i have been away a bit
but thats just because im looking for another job. i find the one that i have to be very unsatisfying and pedantic. if any of my friends know of something else for me, how about letting me know, yo
other than that… still the cynical mess ive made of myself. angry on the inside, smiling on the out. awake to the fact that we are all alone on this marble, and we spend our days alone waiting...
“if you were my friend
you could break my back in half”
– cansei de ser sexy. reggae all night. donkey.
what i am doing concurrently
you know… alongside the dying:
is BALLS.
mindless. empty. vapid. balls.
i am so over the whole damn thing. i am so over projecting so much positive force from within myself to the outer reaches of the universe, for this fucking payoff.
you win universe you mother of a whore!!
ya fuckin win. i swear to everything holy that if i had a gun; a bullet i would have for dinner this...
the weekend
friday. good times. good friends. good band. drinks, i dont remember. smokin aces. home for bed right before the sun came up.
saturday. slept, for a bit… took it easy. watched films from the dvr. none of which come to mind.
sunday: lunch at rudy’s. delicious. whenever i think of being a vegetarian, i think of rudys and that notion is vanquished. good times. good friends.
for this i am...
“park that car
drop that phone
sleep on the floor
dream about me.”
– broken social scene. anthem for a seventeen year old girl. you forgot it in people.
in case you were wondering...
im around…
just nothing is… nothing is going on.
work… eh
thoughts: pretty vacant. thinking about moving on. rambling on. my place in the universe and how to get there. a war all the time. unhappiness being the rotted fruit around what should grow into my beams of light… guiding my way out.
songs: thrice’s 4 ep.s, the alchemy index. i think if i ever had a band,...
affirmations
today i am in a place of great appreciation and openess to the universe and all it entails.
today i am a lightning rod for truth and hope.
today i will not let the darkness, that has a tendency to envelope me, blind and consume me.
today i am all faiths bled into one.
today i am all things, the love the hate. the understood and the misunderstood. the alpha, the omega. the king and the...
“if it be your will,
if there is a choice,
let the rivers fill,
let the hills...”
– leonard cohen. if it be your will. various positions.
the following describe me:
sleepy. sore. unmotivated. depressed. opressed. bitter. angry. apologetic. unapologetic. sinner. unsatisfied. unhappy. unrested. guilty as charged. guilty as uncharged. worrysome. secretive. deceptive. confused. concerned. indifferent. pessimistic. hopeful. out of sorts. holy. unholy. frustrated. sad. wanting. waiting. wishing. loveless. loved. liked. unliked. gentle. rough. vulgar. soft spoken....
“oh, and she’s always dressed in white
she’s like an angel and she...”
– damien rice. dogs. 9
obviously
i hate my job i hate my job i hate my job i hate my job
i hate my job i hate my job i hate my job i hate my job
i hate my job i hate my job i hate my job i hate my job
i hate my job i hate my job i hate my job i hate my job
i hate my job i hate my job i hate my job i hate my job
i hate my job i hate my job i hate my job i hate my job
“and all i really know is, i wanna know.
and all i really know is i dont wanna...”
– counting crows. amy hit the atmosphere. this desert life.
“‘cause it’s not hard to fall… and i dont wanna scare her...”
– damien rice. cannonball. o.
new u2 single: get on your boots. →
today is the greatest, day i've ever known.
today. i am finally proud to be an american. for all the american history we receive growing up in school, it always seemed like the best days were way back when the country was being founded on ideals, which at the time were unfathomable. now years later, we know that even they didnt have it absolutly right, but the very idea, that a group of people were done with being told how they would be...
“you would like those flowers on the hills
and the sunlight in the fall, even...”
– cardinals. go easy. cardinology.
inauguration thoughts #3
i think the first thing we as americans, and as a children of the planet need to do is apologize to the world.
i am sorry for the opressed. i am sorry for the distraught. i am sorry for the disenchanted and cynical. and i am sorry for the dead.
i am sorry for how we treat women in all societies. i am sorry for how we treat people of other races. i apologize for how we treat other sexual...
inauguration thoughts #2
now what i think about whats about to happen with mr. obama becoming president:
i realize that one man does not control all of this. i know its a hierarchy of uppercrust businessmen and lobbyists, lawyers and lobbyists, special interests and money, that control how this country is govern. i realize that george bush is not ALL to blame for the problems we face today. sometimes the head gets...
inuaguration thoughts #1.
1. why was jon bon jovi invited to any sort of celebration? what is it with the segment of the country that embraces this asshole that made one fucking album 20 something years ago. theyve made more albums since then, but name one song from any of them and i might shut up.
2. what makes jonbonjovi think that he could even ATTEMPT to cover sam cooke? really how did this guy escape the backlash of...
weekend:
nothing happened.
didnt do anything i proposed to do
didnt not do anything i proposed to do
slept very little.
played sloppy guitar songs, crossed out name. ryanadams and stay (faraway,so close)u2
watched ufc, caring little for any outcome
watched football, caring very little for any outcome
killed the gym twice.
plotted my next course
waiting for the sign
asking for suggestions
ear to the...