December 2008
112 posts
dec31.08
the happiest of newyears to each and every living soul. from my mouth to yours.
i stayed home today because of some allergies. no way to start a new 365 but hopefully, by nightfall… ill have it under control. going to take some time to medicate and think and line things up for the changes about to unfold. and im ready. im sooooo fucking ready lord.
just watched the oliver stone masterpiece...
“everybodys got a bomb, we could all die anyday.
but before i let that...”
– prince.1999.
“with a sky blue sky
this rotten time
wouldnt seem so bad, to me now.
oh but i...”
– wilco. sky blue sky.
everybody got they
rock band2 for christmas.
everybody singing those songs. some of which shouldnt be on any game, any jukebox, anybodys wishlist, anybodys itunes playlist… but retired so that they cannot harm future generations. i still think guitar hero is the superior product in song selection and difficulty and quality feeling… but whatevs… whos a fake plastic guitar band snob? not i.
day 2...
mantra for the new year T minus 3 days
found inside my old friend. the motherfucker that got/gets me through. the one thing ive always been able to depend on. the one thing, that i have loved loyally like a good dog for 15 years now:
when you… decide that your life, is a prize renew and revive! it’s alright honey… it’s alright, yeah!
happiness will make you wonder, “will i feel ok?” it scares the...
films i took in yesterday
sean penn is amazingness. viewed the film, the assasination of richard nixon yesterday as sports i could care less about happened. so so good. less to do with nixon, which i liked, and more to do with the man who had intended to hijack a plane and crash it into the white house, sam bicke. and not confused. and not really deranged. but more just lost and disenfranchised. destroyed by a woman, by a...
5 days
5 days off of a job you hate will make you want to be off like that for another 5 years. i got used to the sleep and the emptiness of not really having much planned… and i got used to the drinks and seeing everyone i could possibly know… and i got used to the alonetimes and not feeling like i was cramming those times into a day so bent on seeming so busy when in all actuallity…...
pregame.
back to work starts today. and its not good work. actually, its quite mindless and brain robbing. totally not the place where the bright eyed kid that i was 15 years ago would have pictured himself.
but the picture is changing. the universe just doesnt say when.
ive got miles of confusion all in my viewscreen. in the in betweens. stuck in a moment(s). and i want out. i want out soooooo fucking...
the holidays
are currently still happening. but took a second to say happy thems to you if youre still there. ;)
funny how the days are all scheduled around food though. like hey, ill be in town… lets have lunch. that sort of thing… meanwhile less fortunate peeps are just trying to get some change for a burger or something… they dont normally care about their milk being soy or their...
AGAIN WITH THE FUCKING STOP LIGHT
seriously? seriously…. you know what light you wait 5 fucking minutes at?
A FUCKING LIGHT WITH AN OVERTURNED CAR IN THE INTERSECTION
A FUCKING LIGHT WITH 14 LANES OF TRAFFIC ALL POINTED AT EACH OTHER WITH VARIOUS PROTECTED LEFT TURNS ALL AROUND THE HORN
A FUCKING LIGHT WITH A BABY CRAWLING THROUGH IT BEING CHASED BY A RAT
A FUCKING LIGHT WHILE A PARADE MARCHES BY
there is no excuse for...
AGAIN WITH THE FUCKING STOP LIGHT
things im excited by in the new year (in list...
1. new u2 album. no line on the horizon
2. new silversun pickups album
3. new stellastarr* album
4. new pumpkin sounds in non album form
5. new manson album
6. chi from the deftones coming out of a coma
7. im sure ryan adams will have something new
8. rumor of a new damien rice album
9. new yeah yeah yeahs
10. new queens of the stone age album
11. new arcade fire? MAYBE?
12. and ive...
i should be and then into figuring it all out.
i should be off today. but im not. instead… here in the quiet hum of a place i loathe, thankful for it (barely) but thankful… just today and tomorrow though… and then a little time off… in 3 years ive realized that ive gone from hating the holidays to last year having the time to breathe and appreciate the holidays again to this year… a sad combination. maybe life...
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crosstown traffic
in all directions around me traffic stands still. i stepped out for what i thought would be a leisurely gentle drive to grab a bite to eat that turned into an hour long buttfuckathon* of anger and frustration. first off, this side of town is way too industrialized, so the lengths of traffic go on for miles with all the giant 18 wheelers pulling metal who-knows-what to fucking who-knows-where. ive...
“all i ever wanted. all i ever needed. is here… in my arms
words are very...”
– enjoy the silence. dm
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evidence of daaaaamn.
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so this one time
ive only gotten the opportunity to see courtney love one time in my life. sad, methinks. she gets so much grief for so much. mouthy… ego driven. kurt killing (in some circles) starfucker. but she has always seemed so briliant and beyond her years to me forever now… and i think shes fucking hot evenstill.
anyway. we went to a hole show once. i guess their last tour as a band and had...
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im Quite the fan of music posters
themarsvolta
sonic youth
Qotsa
i of the mourning
ahhh… its a particularly disgusting day in houston texas. the weather is beyond the normal dreary-ness of winter greys… with this overabundance of humidty + the winter chill trying to roll in… like driving through garbage…. so to counter it, you drive slower. be careful… defensive. but ill tell you something… and maybe this is the not so much sleep for good...
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if i had to...
… and i dont. but if i felt so inclined to tell you what albums this year you should own… i wouldnt write it in list form. thats all SOOOO very pitchfork. soooo very rollingstone.
so if hypothetically, i were to say that “ryan adams and the cardinals, cardinology didnt/hasnt leave/left my constant rotation since it was released”… then one should take that as a...
todays musics
fittingly i turned the ignition and arcade fire wake up began my day. if theres not another single most perfect way to start its the arcade fire… a personal side story to the madness that is this band that you had better know about and fucking worship. the band was just getting the buzz that goes with something that is about to change the face of music… and my amazing friend teddy,...
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ramble on
the problem with blogging is this… for me, is its too early in the fucking morning to tackle somethings. and then on top of that i have the memory of a geriatric old woman with alzheimers…so ill walk around thinking i got something to say… to soon find out, i cant remember what i was going to say.
its sad
and then… doesnt this need more focus? seems like i should set out...
“not neccesarily stoned… but…
beautiful.”
– hendrix: are you experienced.
something to consider
meditation
medication
medi-tation
medi-cation
medi t ation
medi c ation
now for a change...
more of the same.
sleepy. angry. stomach hurts. music. ryan adams. smashing pumpkins. gymtimes.
its all gotten very boring by now, hasnt it?
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OH
aand thanks to my beautiful friend… i listened and downloaded illegally an album by christian recording artist: phil wickham.
never against music of an inspirational nature, but finding that some of it just bugs me, i was hesitant… but pleasantly surprised. he has such a nice voice and big soaring choruses like u2 lite…
kinda reminds me of paloalto, which is now...
the ghost of weekend past
friday was fun. i overdid it a bit. but so is gluttony… whos she to tell me how many guinnesses are too much? anyway…good times. good sounds. good friends.
saturday was a recovery PROcess… the world moved superslow and i could barely formulate sentences.
sunday more of the same.
watched the following in some form or other:
lou reed on elvis costello’s new sundance show,...
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Watchplaying ray lamontagne’s song, jolene (badly)
ps. in the dark.
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“i couldnt see the future…
i liked the past...”
– ryan adams
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cure-iosity
so the Question i ask of you is this?
do you like, what you like… you know… musically… because of reasons of nostalgia? or because of a memory, or a girl… tied to said memory? or do you like what you like…you know, musically… because it speaks to your current climate… sometimes more than other times…
i realize that the past is past…. like...
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the golden globes are dead to me
what i felt to be the last true measure of awarding overindulgence in art, the golden globes is dead to me. not because something i saw this year didnt make the cut… not because some actor i rally against got a nod… no. the golden globes are dead to me because i feel theyre trying to be too obscure… too indie snobby with their choices. and b… because it never really...
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i didnt think
…this fucking day would get here fast enough this week. GEEEEEEEE-SUS! im not one to fucking freak out (actually i am… it isnt fucking pretty) but i dont think i could take another day. like if a week was 8 days, like if god had scheduled a day off between let there being light and let there being vampires or gumdrops… i would have lie down on some traintracks.
whatevs
this...
“she, the epitome of i created fairer. open ocean in her hair
> a flowers...”
– this is personal, yes. for a girl.
but i am not afraid anymore. the world is about to tremble.
dustin
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nothing gettting accomplished. and i wonder how many people have these/this kind of:
a. meaningless blog sites
b. time on their hands throughout the day to post pictures of prince and tattoo’d girls
c. uncharted little lives floating on the tops of the waves, ever so often, peering into the deep… but most often timed, just floating… seeing the surroundings and doing little to...